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I guess that IS what a 19 actually looks like… a 19 that has fallen from higher numbers.

 Todays result: 8.6

It didn’t work. A “chemical pregnancy” or just an embie that didn’t want to stick around, either way it totally BLOWS. Also, this e-mail from the clinic didn’t make me feel any better:

 We definitely need to go over the cycle and see why we did not conceive

Which feels very much like an accusation, but I’m sure it’s just standard procedure. Not that my brain knowing that will pull the hurt out of my heart any. I just REALLY wanted this to work. Really. And it didn’t. And I don’t know what I could have done to make work. All I know is my body didn’t grow this baby, and that is just SUCH a crappy feeling.